Putting God First!
You can go through life as a person that puts others first. I did that! So why was I so miserable?
It seemed that no matter what I did , I failed. Parts of my life were successful. Sometimes I was a good mom. There were times I was great at my job. I failed, always, at marriage and relationships, for sure! But there were glimpses of successes. I just couldn’t put it all together.
I was never completely happy. After my sons were both out of the house though ,I had NOTHING! It took so long, so many horrible decisions, depression , substances. I then decided, it was OK to focus on me! I thought for sure this would bring me happiness. Nope! Always something missing.
Romans 13:14 NIV
Rather, clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ, and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the flesh.
Philippians 2:13 NIV
for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose.
During the time I chose to ‘put me first’ my oldest son really read me the riot act and called me selfish! Whoah! Could I do nothing right?
Isiah 2:11 NIV
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves,
There was also a period of time, as I observed others , that I convinced myself that having too many people in my life was too much drama. I said this to myself to justify the loneliness, deep deep loneliness I felt.
Ephesians 3:19 NIV
and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Now we are back to the top….why was I so miserable? With people, without people. Putting others first, nor putting myself first achieved happiness. Sure I could be ok, or contept for a bit. Heck I even felt sucess for a bit as I climbed the corporate ladder and achieved success there. But never completely felt right.
Thats because I didn’t have God and without God I did not have my true purpose. To achieve all that, I had to put God first!
Once that was achieved …… you have to listen and do!
1Peter 4:11
If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.
There are many more lessons , miracles, workings of God in my life. But everyday I wake to live this….to build a community…to do everything in praise and glory to God.
Roman’s 15:7
Accept one another, then, just as Christ accepted you, in order to bring praise to God.
Colleen Moore
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